"Manusia Hawa diciptakan dari rusuk manusia Adam, bukan dari kepalanya utk dijunjung di atasnya, bukan pula dari kakinya untuk dijadikan alasnya, tetapi di sisinya utk dijadikan teman hidupnya, dekat pada lengannya utk dilindungi & dekat dihatinya utk dicintai......"

Kidnap la Sangat...

Dear All,

K.I.D.N.A.P. according to the dictionary is to carry off (a person) illegally in order to obtain a ransom; as in Malay it is called C.U.L.I.K.

Aku bukanlah nak bercerita pasal kes-kes yang terjadi disekeliling kita yang berkaitan dengan kes penculikan ni ha. Aku cuma nak bercerita kejadian "penculikan" yang telah berlaku semalam. Sape kene culik? Aku ler kene culik sapa lagi, kalau orang lain kene culik tu masalah diorang la, bukan masalah aku...hahhahah!!! Gila bongkak!!!

Aku just berjanji ngan Dadar nak jumpa dia kat Sentral sebab nak pass hadiah-hadiah besday yang dah berkurun lama tak dibagi. Paper beg pon dah naik hancoq gitu. Then, I called Beckerina up sebab dah lama tak jumpa, ajak makan2. Soh gak Nyet (baru kejap dia ym aku n ada gambo orang utan kat box tu,so dengan otomatik aku panggil dia nyet..heheheh) datang Sentral ambik barang dia, tapi tak dapat datang sebab hujan. Dengan tangan sebelah yang ada tu ler, aku menggalas beg2 hadiah tu, gila siksa...orang2 dalam tren plak looked at me macam aku takde muka..siot jek!!! Hello..tengok tangan aku tergantung macam tu pun korang leh buat muka pelik...pathetic la...cam tak pernah tgk org patah tangan. Rimas aku!!

Kat kul 6 gak la aku sampai and as usual minah tu punctual sebab dak terpacak kat Resepi Rahsia tu ha. Dalam half an hour Beckerina muncul and we all melantak sakan. Beckerina makan Fish n Chips, Dadar order Beef Steak and aku order Spring Roll, Mushroom Soup and Lasagna. Biasa ler sambil makan, sambil borak, sambil gelak and sambil ngumpat. All in 1 katanya.

Beckerina bagitau dia nak pegi main badminton ngan dak2 lain and nanti Adilla akan datang amik kat Sentral. Aku was like..ooo..ok. no hal la kan..boleh tolong sampaikan barang2 tu skalik, shian plak kat Dadar bawak barang banyak2. Dak 2 ekor ni plak racun aku ajak pegi tengok badminton..chaitt!! apokejadah eh den nak poie sano, bukan leh main pon??!! Lagipun aku nak kene balik la, sebab aku tak bagitau Encik Larmyzee pon. Aku just bgtau aku lepak ngan Dadar kat Sentral. Si Beckerina nih dah tarik2, pegang2 aku takut aku larik, Dadar plak jadik partner in crime plak jadik bodyguard. Aku disumbatnya dalam kete Adilla. Oooo...subahat yer...mentang2 aku ada kecacatan sementara, ko buli aku yooo!! korang tunggu yo, ompek minggu lagi, tahu la...hukuman eh samo la tukang pedajal ngan tukang subahat..so beringat-ingat la yo cik Bekerina n Cik Dadar!!

So, semalam officially la aku kene kidnap ngan budak 2 ekoq ni ha. Aku tak berapa berkenan ngan cara kidnap-kidnap nih but i really understand what their attention was. I really appreciate what you did and I can feel the impact (a good one la kan) and who knows "things' mended sooner than i thought it would be. Now I felt like I'm eating my own words now...so how??? Abaikan jek la kot, for the better...

Apa yang aku buat semalam, of coz la ada akibatnya. Ni Cik Bekerina and Cik Dadar la punya pasal...hahhahahah!!!! Encik Larmyzee sms me at 11 pm but masa tu tengak lepak baik punya kat luar, handphone tinggal dalam beg. Aku just reply his sms at midnite. Tak jawab. I called him. He's not answering me. Called and called again. Hampeh!! Then I knew there will be huge silence between us afterwards. Pegi minum and makan kat Pelita Bangsar and seperti biasa citer hantu ler..and some more lawak2 bodoh and some more citer hantu, then balik ler. Sampai umah nearly 2 am. Looking for my Alza but she's not around but Lexus ada. oooo...Encik Larmyzee bawak kete aku yer...memang sah akan silent treatment punya laa...

Naik umah, mandi n tido. I was not asleep when I heard Encik Larmyzee came home, tapi ado den kesah..maleh layan..tido lagik baik...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

Hari nie, perang tanpa suara akan bermula.....

C'ya!!

Things Happened but to Turn Back.....

Dear alls,

I just don't know what to jot down in this entry. Well, using my left hand and 2 fingers of my right hand, a bit hard i guess for me, yelah for someone used to type using both hands and her 10 fingers. Secretaries knows la how it feels.

Things going just fine for me, I guess. Work wise, i'm still have to go to work eventhough I've 7 days medical leave which my boss don't bother at all. Lots of meeting to attend especially with the Ministries. Proposals keep on coming, projected cash flow pon sama jugak tu tak termasuk drafting agreement for minor projects and preparing documents for audit purposes. Teramat la multi-purpose la aku nih, baper bulan la boss aku nak kasik bonus tahun nih??

Family? Cam biasa. Still searching for my car key since Encik Larmyzee dah sorokkan. pagi tadi gi kerja naik bas. nak tak nak terpaksa la jugak aku pakai sling bandage tu, nak ngelak orang langgar...bosan. Encik Larmyzee plak sibuk memanjang, nak spend time togedegeder pon payah. EG pon dah lama aku tak pi jenguk...tengok la tunggu birthday Mak Cik Ani aka mak aku 1hb nanti, aku balik kejap la kot sebab dah plan ngan adik-adik nak buat kenduri doa selamat untuk mak and tahlil untuk arwah ayah, abang long and abang ngah. Ish..besonya rasa beban kat bahu aku nih..sejak arwah angah takde..semua ats kepala aku. Mujur ler Encik Larmyzee memahami situasi keluarga aku. Sayang you B.

Dua tiga menjak nih, I'm trying to get use having do everything alone. Tengok wayang, shopping, karaoke even main bowling pon. Hidup macam dalam denial ye gak...hahahhah!!! bengong la aku. I'm hypocritically admit that i'm not missing my friends even the real fact is I am missing them, like hell (in a good way la kan). Missing those crazy things we've done together, screamed to each other, well good old days. Can these memories will continue with new memories? What will be my answer? YES but not now.

My sister in Senawang said I'm stupid as in Terengganu's dialect (usually aku cakap Ganu ngan family) "bengong la mung, memang dok ghok cetong, mende kecik pon mung nok ambek ati, biasa arr bodo!! adak kawang arr tu??!!". Bila tanya kat mak aku plak, dia kata "mung memang base gitu doh, dari kecik pah beso, bukang buleh oghang buak kawang, osoh beng la, dok soghang dalam utang doh". So meaning, memang aku takleh ada kawan la kot...hahhahahah!!! bukan aku kata mak aku kata.

Ntah ngapa hati aku keras beno kali nie sebab aku rasa things did happened and it's not the time to turn back from what I've decided to do. Fikiran kata macam tu tapi hati lain. Tapi macam aku cakap la, things happened. Called me names, I don't mind; selfish, arrogant, ego, bajet bagus, mengada-ngada and the list can continue for hundreds of pages, really...help yourself. I really don't mind. I know I've make mistakes that people can't forgive, I accepted it and will not blamed others for the damages I've done. I'm living my life and I'm trying to getting use of who i am before. Importantly, I'm not blaming others, everything happened because of me..just me. I admit masa mula2 dulu memang ada mengadu domba katanya, as in luahkan perasaan, tapi tak tahu la kot disalahertikan oleh pihak-pihak yang lain. hati tengah panas, biasalah. But when i've come to my senses, it's really tak perlu. Sepatutnya aku simpan untuk diri aku sendiri coz pusing2 bende tu dikalangan aku jugak. My bad and I'm sorry for the mistakes.

A friend once said, it's better lose 1 good friend rather than losing 10 good friends. That's very true. Well said. In my case, I'm dropping everyone off coz i don't wanna hurt anyone anymore, people that I called FRIENDS. I'm well aware about myself, coz I've never have close friends before. Adapting to a clan so called friends worries me a lot at first. But as the times goes by, i've kinda get use to it until things happened. I think I better off alone, again.

Panjang umur, murah rezeki, inshaallah bertemu kembali.

See 'ya!!