Friday, December 20, 2013

Letter in the Wallet


As I walked home one freezing day, I stumbled on a wallet someone had lost in the street. I picked it up and looked inside to find some identification so I could call the owner. But the wallet contained only three dollars and a crumpled letter that looked as if it had been in there for years. The envelope was worn and the only thing that was legible on it was the return address. I started to open the letter, hoping to find some clue. Then I saw the dateline — 1924. The letter had been written almost sixty years ago.

It was written in a beautiful feminine handwriting on powder blue stationery with a little flower in the left-hand corner. It was a "Dear John" letter that told the recipient, whose name appeared to be Michael, that the writer could not see him any more because her mother forbade it. Even so, she wrote that she would always love him. It was signed, Hannah.

It was a beautiful letter, but there was no way except for the name Michael, that the owner could be identified. Maybe if I called information, the operator could find a phone listing for the address on the envelope. "Operator," I began, "this is an unusual request. I'm trying to find the owner of a wallet that I found. Is there anyway you can tell me if there is a phone number for an address that was on an envelope in the wallet?" She suggested I speak with her supervisor, who hesitated for a moment then said, "Well, there is a phone listing at that address, but I can't give you the number." She said, as a courtesy, she would call that number, explain my story and would ask them if they wanted her to connect me. I waited a few minutes and then she was back on the line. "I have a party who will speak with you." I asked the woman on the other end of the line if she knew anyone by the name of Hannah. She gasped, "Oh! We bought this house from a family who had a daughter named Hannah. But that was 30 years ago!"

"Would you know where that family could be located now?" I asked. "I remember that Hannah had to place her mother in a nursing home some years ago," the woman said. "Maybe if you got in touch with them they might be able to track down the daughter." She gave me the name of the nursing home and I called the number. They told me the old lady had passed away some years ago but they did have a phone number for where they thought the daughter might be living. I thanked them and phoned. The woman who answered explained that Hannah herself was now living in a nursing home.

This whole thing was stupid, I thought to myself. Why was I making such a big deal over finding the owner of a wallet that had only three dollars and a letter that was almost 60 years old? Nevertheless, I called the nursing home in which Hannah was supposed to be living and the man who answered the phone told me, "Yes, Hannah is staying with us." Even though it was already 10 p.m., I asked if I could come by to see her. "Well," he said hesitatingly, "if you want to take a chance, she might be in the day room watching television." I thanked him and drove over to the nursing home. The night nurse and a guard greeted me at the door. We went up to the third floor of the large building. In the day room, the nurse introduced me to Hannah.

She was a sweet, silver-haired old timer with a warm smile and a twinkle in her eye. I told her about finding the wallet and showed her the letter. The second she saw the powder blue envelope with that little flower on the left, she took a deep breath and said, "Young man, this letter was the last contact I ever had with Michael." She looked away for a moment deep in thought and then said Softly, "I loved him very much. But I was only 16 at the time and my mother felt I was too young. Oh, he was so handsome. He looked like Sean Connery, the actor. Yes," she continued. "Michael Goldstein was a wonderful person. If you should find him, tell him I think of him often. And," she hesitated for a moment, almost biting her lip, "tell him I still love him. You know," she said smiling as tears began to well up in her eyes, "I never did marry. I guess no one ever matched up to Michael..."

I thanked Hannah and said good-bye. I took the elevator to the first floor and as I stood by the door, the guard there asked, "Was the old lady able to help you?" I told him she had given me a lead. "At least I have a last name. But I think I'll let it go for a while. I spent almost the whole day trying to find the owner of this wallet." I had taken out the wallet, which was a simple brown leather case with red lacing on the side. When the guard saw it, he said, "Hey, wait a minute! That's Mr. Goldstein's wallet. I'd know it anywhere with that bright red lacing. He's always losing that wallet. I must have found it in the halls at least three times." "Who's Mr. Goldstein?" I asked as my hand began to shake. "He's one of the old timers on the 8th floor. That's Mike Goldstein's wallet for sure. He must have lost it on one of his walks."

I thanked the guard and quickly ran back to the nurse's office. I told her what the guard had said. We went back to the elevator and got on. I prayed that Mr. Goldstein would be up. On the eighth floor, the floor nurse said, "I think he's still in the day room. He likes to read at night. He's a darling old man." We went to the only room that had any lights on and there was a man reading a book. The nurse went over to him and asked if he had lost his wallet, "This kind gentleman found a wallet and we wondered if it could be yours?" Mr. Goldstein looked up with surprise, put his hand in his back pocket and said, "Oh, it is missing!" I handed Mr. Goldstein the wallet and the second he saw it, he smiled with relief and said, "Yes, that's it! It must have dropped out of my pocket this afternoon. I want to give you a reward." "No, thank you," I said. "But I have to tell you something. I read the letter in the hope of finding out who owned the wallet." The smile on his face suddenly disappeared. "You read that letter?"

"Not only did I read it, I think I know where Hannah is." He suddenly grew pale. "Hannah? You know where she is? How is she? Is she still as pretty as she was? Please, please tell me," he begged. "She's fine...just as pretty as when you knew her." I said softly. The old man smiled with anticipation and asked, "Could you tell me where she is? I want to call her tomorrow." He grabbed my hand and said, "You know something, mister, I was so in love with that girl that when that letter came, my life literally ended. I never married. I guess I've always loved her. "

"Mr. Goldstein," I said, "come with me." We took the elevator down to the third floor. The hallways were darkened and only one or two little night-lights lit our way to the day room where Hannah was sitting alone watching the television. The nurse walked over to her. "Hannah," she said softly, pointing to Michael, who was waiting with me in the doorway. "Do you know this man?" She adjusted her glasses, looked for a moment, but didn't say a word. Michael said softly, almost in a whisper, "Hannah, it's Michael. Do you remember me?" She gasped, "Michael! I don't believe it! Michael! It's you! My Michael!" He walked slowly towards her and they embraced. The nurse and I left with tears streaming down our faces.

About three weeks later I got a call at my office from the nursing home. "Can you break away on Sunday to attend a wedding? Michael and Hannah are going to tie the knot!" It was a beautiful wedding with all the people at the nursing home dressed up to join in the celebration. Hannah wore a light beige dress and looked beautiful. Michael wore a dark blue suit and stood tall. They made me their best man. The hospital gave them their own room and if you ever wanted to see a 76-year-old bride and a 79-year-old groom acting like two teenagers, you had to see this couple. A perfect ending for a love affair that had lasted nearly 60 years.

~By Arnold Fine, 

Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Melupakan Masa Lalu Yang Menyakitkan

 
Walaupun suatu waktu ketika dia telah sengaja mengkhianatiku, sehingga kini sakitnya amat payah untuk aku hilangkan. Tapi kasih sayang aku melangkaui kesakitan yang diberikan dan untuk itu alasan  yang cukup kuat untuk aku memaafkan segala kekhilafannya. Namun itu juga bermakna  aku telah punya cukup alas an untuk tidak mempercayainya kembali.

"Berhentilah memikirkan orang-orang yang telah mengecewakanmu di masa lalumu. Berhentilah berharap kepada orang-orang yang telah dengan sengaja menyakitimu di masa lalumu.  Kerana hal itu akan membuat banyak waktu terbuang percuma dan sia-sia."

Percayalah, Allah pasti punya alasan kenapa dia tidak berada bersamaku di masa sekarang dan di masa depanku.

Ingatlah, jangan sekali-kali berprasangka buruk kepada Allah atas keputusan-Nya. Apalagi sampai membenci Allah karena Ia tidak selalu memberikan apa yang aku inginkan.

Tapi yakinlah, Allah lebih tahu apa yang aku perlukan daripada sekadar apa yang kamu inginkan. Akan ada waktunya Dia akan memberikan suatu yang lebih indah dibandingkan dengan apa yang telah hilang dari genggamanku

Tuesday, May 28, 2013

Entahlah...



Aku kini dipersimpangan, sama ada mengikut kata hati atau terus terikat dengan tanggungjawab.  Tersepit di antara dua pilihan tetapi akhirnya akan memberi kesan yang sama ... walau apa pun pilihan yang aku buat, aku tetap akan merasa sakit dan perit ... aku pasti, dalam sedar atau tidak, airmata dan doa akan sentiasa menjadi teman karib aku sampai ke akhir hayat ..
 
Separuh hati aku berkata-kata " pergilah, memang sakit, memang perit tapi aku pasti kau boleh lalui, sebab kau kuat". Separuh lagi kata "jangan pergi, biarlah kau menangis dalam sakit yang perit, tetapi kau akan bahagiakan ramai pihak. kau tabah, kau sabar, pasti semuanya akan baik-baik saja" ..
 
Ya Allah, kuatkah aku melalui ujianMu ..

Tuesday, April 30, 2013

Doa Seorang Isteri Untuk Suami Tercinta ...


Ya Allah..
Kau ampunilah dosa ku yang telah kuperbuat
Kau limpahkanlah aku dengan kesabaran yang tiada terbatas
Kau berikanlah aku kekuatan mental
Kau kurniakanlah aku dengan sifat keredhan
Kau peliharalah lidahku dari kata-kata nista
Kau kuatkanlah semangatku menempuhi segala cabaran Mu
Kau berikanlah aku sifat kasih sesama insan
Ya Allah…
Sekiranya suamiku ini adalah pilihan Mu di Arash
Berilah aku kekuatan dan keyakinan untuk terus bersamanya
Sekiranya suamiku ini adalah suami yang akan membimbing tanganku dititianMu
Kurniakanlah aku sifat kasih dan redha atas segala perbuatannya
Sekiranya suami ku ini adalah bidadara untuk ku di Jannah Mu
Limpahkanlah aku dengan sifat tunduk dan tawaduk akan segala perintahnya
Sekiranya suami ku ini adalah yang terbaik untukku di Dunia Mu
Peliharalah tingkah laku serta kata-kataku dari menyakiti perasaannya
Sekiranya suami ku ini jodoh yang dirahmati oleh Mu
Berilah aku kesabaran untuk menghadapi segala kerenah dan ragamnya
Tetapi ya Allah…Sekiranya suami ku ini ditakdirkan bukan untuk diriku seorang
Kau tunjukkanlah aku jalan yang terbaik untuk aku harungi segala dugaanMu
Sekiranya suami ku tergoda dengan keindahan dunia Mu
Limpahkanlah aku kesabaran untuk terus membimbingnya
Sekiranya suamiku tunduk terhadap nafsu yang melalaikan
Kurniakanlah aku kekuatan Mu untuk aku memperbetulkan keadaanya
Sekiranya suamiku menyintai kesesatan
Kau pandulah aku untuk menarik dirinya keluar dari terus terlena
Ya Allah…Kau yang Maha Mengetahui apa yangterbaik untukku
Kau juga yang Maha Mengampuni segala kesilapan dan keterlanjurank
Sekiranya aku tersilap berbuat keputusanBimbinglah aku ke jalan yang Engkau redhai

Sekiranya aku lalai dalam tanggungjawabku sebagai isteri
Kau hukumlah aku didunia tetapi bukan diakhirat Mu
Sekiranya aku engkar dan derhaka

Berikanlah aku petunjuk kearah rahmatMu
Ya Allah…Sesungguhnya aku lemah tanpa petunjukMu
Aku buta tanpa bimbingan MuAku cacat tanpa hidayah Mu
Aku hina tanpa Rahmat Mu

Ya Allah…Kuatkan hati dan semangatku
Tabahkan aku menghadapi segala cubaanMu
Jadikanlah aku isteri yang disenangi suami
Bukakanlah hatiku untuk menghayati agama Mu
Bimbinglah aku menjadi isteri Solehah
Hanya pada Mu,

Ya Allah…
Ku pohon segala harapan
Kerana aku pasrah dengan dugaan Mu
Kerana aku sedar hinanya aku
Kerana aku insan lemah yang kerap keliru
Kerana aku leka dengan keindahan duniaMu
Kerana kurang kesabaran ku menghadapi cabaran Mu
Kerana pendek akal ku mengharungi ujian Mu
Ya Allah Tuhanku…….
Aku hanya ingin menjadi isteri yang dirahmati
Isteri yang dikasihi
Isteri yang solehah
Isteri yang sentiasa dihati
Amin, Ya Rabbi Allamin…….


Thursday, April 25, 2013

Kerana Hidup Mengajar Kita ....

Seorang muslim selalu ada cara sendiri untuk merawat hatinya
Meski berlawanan dengan apa yang di terima di dalam kehidupannya
Terkadang saat mendapat musibah, air matanya menitis
Tapi, hatinya selalu yakin bahawa apa yang diberikan Allah kepadanya pasti yang terbaik
 Diri mungkin lelah, fikirannya mungkin penat
Tapi, tidak dengan hatinya..

Ia yakin ketika ia di uji itu sebagai tanda bahwa Allah mencintainya.
Ia yakin ada sesuatu indah yang telah Allah persiapkan untuknya
Ia yakin setelah kesulitan akan selalu ada kemudahan
Ia yakin ada banyak hikmah yang ada disebaliknya
Ia yakin Allah lebih tahu yang terbaik untuknya
Ia yakin jika ia bersabar pasti akan berakhir indah

Kerana jalan hidup tidak selamanya mudah
Perlu ada batu kerikil, supaya kita berhati-hati
Perlu ada semak berduri supaya kita waspada
Perlu  ada persimpangan supaya kita bijaksana dalam memilih
Perlu ada petunjuk jalan supaya kita punya harapan tentang arah masa depan
Perlu ada masalah supaya kita tahu, kita punya kekuatan

Hidup, memerlukanpengorbanan supaya kita tahu cara bekerja keras
Perlukan air mata supaya tahu merendahkan hati
Perlukan hinaan supaya kita tahu bagaimana cara menghargai

Perlukan gelak tawa supaya kita tahu mengucap syukur
Perlukan senyuman supaya kita tahu kita punya cinta
Perlukan orang lain supaya kita tahu bahawa kita tidak pernah sendiri

Itulah kehidupan
Mengajar kita untuk bersabar ketika ujian menyapa
Mengajar kita untuk ikhlas ketika ada yang hilang dari hidup kita
Mengajar kita untuk bersyukur atas semua nikmat yang diberikan-Nya
Mengajar kita untuk senantiasa tawakal terhadap segala ketentuan-Nya
Mengajar kita untuk tetap tersenyum, kerana kita yakin ini adalah yang terbaik dari-Nya



OLEH ITU, SABARLAH, IKHLASLAH, REDHALAH DAN SENYUMLAH WALAU HATI MERINTIH SEDIH.

Thursday, February 14, 2013

Kau Anggap Apa - Ungu





Luahan Hati yang Kecewa

Membaca status-status kengkawan kat FB, aku terbaca status one of my kakak classmate masa kat ITM, Kak Sue. Honestly, nukilannya memang kene dengan apa yang aku rasakan sekarang...


Tuhan...
Hatiku retak, jiwaku hancur
Perasaanku celaru, fikiranku kacau...
Hanya padamu aku mencari...
Hanya padamu aku berharap...
Berikan aku ketenangan...
Berikan aku kekuatan
Tunjukkan aku jalan..untuk melupakan...

Hilangkan dia dari ingatanku...
Hapuskan bayangnya dari mataku...
Walau sakit...walau perit..


Jika kehilangan dah semakin hampir, memang inilah emosinya.  Semoga Kami akan diberi kekuatan dan ketabahan dalam menjalani ujian dariNya .. Setiap kejadian pasti ada hikmah dan anggaplah ini sebagai satu balasan dari yang Esa atas segala khilaf di masa lampau. Bersyukur atas setiap ujian...

Semoga bahagia di akhirannya nanti ....

Thursday, January 31, 2013

Aku Redha



Bila Allah cepat makbulkan Doamu, Maka DIA Menyayangimu, Bila DIA Lambat Makbulkan doamu, Maka DIA Ingin Mengujimu, Bila DIA Tidak Makbulkan Doamu, Maka Dia Merancang Sesuatu Yang lebih Baik Untukmu.

Oleh itu, Sentiasalah Bersangka Baik Pada ALLAH Dalam Apa Jua Keadaan Pun... Kerana Kasih sayang ALLAH Itu Mendahului KemurkaanNya. ."
 
Allah mendengar keluhku yang sekian lama menjadi tanda tanya
Sebagai seorang manusia biasa aku sering kali lupa dan alpa
Apatah lagi kadang-kadang tersasar jua dalam mempersoalkan tentang takdirku
takdir yang tidak dapat diterima
Seakan berbicara hatiku
" Kenapa aku tidak dapat seperti yang aku ingini?"
" Apa salahku? Sehingga Allah mengujiku sehingga begini?"
"Kenapa Allah tak makbulkan doaku untuk sentiasa bahagia dengan kehidupanku?"
Akhirnya terjawab sudah teka-teki hati
Alhamdulillah...
Mungkin inilah balasan untuk dosa-dosaku yang lalu
Mungkin kerana telah lama aku tidak berdoa kepadanya
Mungkin Allah ingin mengujiku kerana selama ini terlalu selesa dengan nikmatNya
Aku bersyukur, aku redha
Hikmah yang begitu bermakna dan semoga berkesan dalam merawat jiwaku yang lara
InsyaAllah.....Allah merancang sesuatu yang lebih untuk diriku...

Ya Allah, Aku Redha dengan takdirMu

Wednesday, January 30, 2013

Allah Knows





 

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