"Manusia Hawa diciptakan dari rusuk manusia Adam, bukan dari kepalanya utk dijunjung di atasnya, bukan pula dari kakinya untuk dijadikan alasnya, tetapi di sisinya utk dijadikan teman hidupnya, dekat pada lengannya utk dilindungi & dekat dihatinya utk dicintai......"

Kidnap la Sangat...

Dear All,

K.I.D.N.A.P. according to the dictionary is to carry off (a person) illegally in order to obtain a ransom; as in Malay it is called C.U.L.I.K.

Aku bukanlah nak bercerita pasal kes-kes yang terjadi disekeliling kita yang berkaitan dengan kes penculikan ni ha. Aku cuma nak bercerita kejadian "penculikan" yang telah berlaku semalam. Sape kene culik? Aku ler kene culik sapa lagi, kalau orang lain kene culik tu masalah diorang la, bukan masalah aku...hahhahah!!! Gila bongkak!!!

Aku just berjanji ngan Dadar nak jumpa dia kat Sentral sebab nak pass hadiah-hadiah besday yang dah berkurun lama tak dibagi. Paper beg pon dah naik hancoq gitu. Then, I called Beckerina up sebab dah lama tak jumpa, ajak makan2. Soh gak Nyet (baru kejap dia ym aku n ada gambo orang utan kat box tu,so dengan otomatik aku panggil dia nyet..heheheh) datang Sentral ambik barang dia, tapi tak dapat datang sebab hujan. Dengan tangan sebelah yang ada tu ler, aku menggalas beg2 hadiah tu, gila siksa...orang2 dalam tren plak looked at me macam aku takde muka..siot jek!!! Hello..tengok tangan aku tergantung macam tu pun korang leh buat muka pelik...pathetic la...cam tak pernah tgk org patah tangan. Rimas aku!!

Kat kul 6 gak la aku sampai and as usual minah tu punctual sebab dak terpacak kat Resepi Rahsia tu ha. Dalam half an hour Beckerina muncul and we all melantak sakan. Beckerina makan Fish n Chips, Dadar order Beef Steak and aku order Spring Roll, Mushroom Soup and Lasagna. Biasa ler sambil makan, sambil borak, sambil gelak and sambil ngumpat. All in 1 katanya.

Beckerina bagitau dia nak pegi main badminton ngan dak2 lain and nanti Adilla akan datang amik kat Sentral. Aku was like..ooo..ok. no hal la kan..boleh tolong sampaikan barang2 tu skalik, shian plak kat Dadar bawak barang banyak2. Dak 2 ekor ni plak racun aku ajak pegi tengok badminton..chaitt!! apokejadah eh den nak poie sano, bukan leh main pon??!! Lagipun aku nak kene balik la, sebab aku tak bagitau Encik Larmyzee pon. Aku just bgtau aku lepak ngan Dadar kat Sentral. Si Beckerina nih dah tarik2, pegang2 aku takut aku larik, Dadar plak jadik partner in crime plak jadik bodyguard. Aku disumbatnya dalam kete Adilla. Oooo...subahat yer...mentang2 aku ada kecacatan sementara, ko buli aku yooo!! korang tunggu yo, ompek minggu lagi, tahu la...hukuman eh samo la tukang pedajal ngan tukang subahat..so beringat-ingat la yo cik Bekerina n Cik Dadar!!

So, semalam officially la aku kene kidnap ngan budak 2 ekoq ni ha. Aku tak berapa berkenan ngan cara kidnap-kidnap nih but i really understand what their attention was. I really appreciate what you did and I can feel the impact (a good one la kan) and who knows "things' mended sooner than i thought it would be. Now I felt like I'm eating my own words now...so how??? Abaikan jek la kot, for the better...

Apa yang aku buat semalam, of coz la ada akibatnya. Ni Cik Bekerina and Cik Dadar la punya pasal...hahhahahah!!!! Encik Larmyzee sms me at 11 pm but masa tu tengak lepak baik punya kat luar, handphone tinggal dalam beg. Aku just reply his sms at midnite. Tak jawab. I called him. He's not answering me. Called and called again. Hampeh!! Then I knew there will be huge silence between us afterwards. Pegi minum and makan kat Pelita Bangsar and seperti biasa citer hantu ler..and some more lawak2 bodoh and some more citer hantu, then balik ler. Sampai umah nearly 2 am. Looking for my Alza but she's not around but Lexus ada. oooo...Encik Larmyzee bawak kete aku yer...memang sah akan silent treatment punya laa...

Naik umah, mandi n tido. I was not asleep when I heard Encik Larmyzee came home, tapi ado den kesah..maleh layan..tido lagik baik...zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz....

Hari nie, perang tanpa suara akan bermula.....

C'ya!!

Things Happened but to Turn Back.....

Dear alls,

I just don't know what to jot down in this entry. Well, using my left hand and 2 fingers of my right hand, a bit hard i guess for me, yelah for someone used to type using both hands and her 10 fingers. Secretaries knows la how it feels.

Things going just fine for me, I guess. Work wise, i'm still have to go to work eventhough I've 7 days medical leave which my boss don't bother at all. Lots of meeting to attend especially with the Ministries. Proposals keep on coming, projected cash flow pon sama jugak tu tak termasuk drafting agreement for minor projects and preparing documents for audit purposes. Teramat la multi-purpose la aku nih, baper bulan la boss aku nak kasik bonus tahun nih??

Family? Cam biasa. Still searching for my car key since Encik Larmyzee dah sorokkan. pagi tadi gi kerja naik bas. nak tak nak terpaksa la jugak aku pakai sling bandage tu, nak ngelak orang langgar...bosan. Encik Larmyzee plak sibuk memanjang, nak spend time togedegeder pon payah. EG pon dah lama aku tak pi jenguk...tengok la tunggu birthday Mak Cik Ani aka mak aku 1hb nanti, aku balik kejap la kot sebab dah plan ngan adik-adik nak buat kenduri doa selamat untuk mak and tahlil untuk arwah ayah, abang long and abang ngah. Ish..besonya rasa beban kat bahu aku nih..sejak arwah angah takde..semua ats kepala aku. Mujur ler Encik Larmyzee memahami situasi keluarga aku. Sayang you B.

Dua tiga menjak nih, I'm trying to get use having do everything alone. Tengok wayang, shopping, karaoke even main bowling pon. Hidup macam dalam denial ye gak...hahahhah!!! bengong la aku. I'm hypocritically admit that i'm not missing my friends even the real fact is I am missing them, like hell (in a good way la kan). Missing those crazy things we've done together, screamed to each other, well good old days. Can these memories will continue with new memories? What will be my answer? YES but not now.

My sister in Senawang said I'm stupid as in Terengganu's dialect (usually aku cakap Ganu ngan family) "bengong la mung, memang dok ghok cetong, mende kecik pon mung nok ambek ati, biasa arr bodo!! adak kawang arr tu??!!". Bila tanya kat mak aku plak, dia kata "mung memang base gitu doh, dari kecik pah beso, bukang buleh oghang buak kawang, osoh beng la, dok soghang dalam utang doh". So meaning, memang aku takleh ada kawan la kot...hahhahahah!!! bukan aku kata mak aku kata.

Ntah ngapa hati aku keras beno kali nie sebab aku rasa things did happened and it's not the time to turn back from what I've decided to do. Fikiran kata macam tu tapi hati lain. Tapi macam aku cakap la, things happened. Called me names, I don't mind; selfish, arrogant, ego, bajet bagus, mengada-ngada and the list can continue for hundreds of pages, really...help yourself. I really don't mind. I know I've make mistakes that people can't forgive, I accepted it and will not blamed others for the damages I've done. I'm living my life and I'm trying to getting use of who i am before. Importantly, I'm not blaming others, everything happened because of me..just me. I admit masa mula2 dulu memang ada mengadu domba katanya, as in luahkan perasaan, tapi tak tahu la kot disalahertikan oleh pihak-pihak yang lain. hati tengah panas, biasalah. But when i've come to my senses, it's really tak perlu. Sepatutnya aku simpan untuk diri aku sendiri coz pusing2 bende tu dikalangan aku jugak. My bad and I'm sorry for the mistakes.

A friend once said, it's better lose 1 good friend rather than losing 10 good friends. That's very true. Well said. In my case, I'm dropping everyone off coz i don't wanna hurt anyone anymore, people that I called FRIENDS. I'm well aware about myself, coz I've never have close friends before. Adapting to a clan so called friends worries me a lot at first. But as the times goes by, i've kinda get use to it until things happened. I think I better off alone, again.

Panjang umur, murah rezeki, inshaallah bertemu kembali.

See 'ya!!

Screeeeettttttt!!!! Dummm!!!!

Dear All,

Just came back from field trip in Sabah. It was a very tiring and most boring trip I've ever handled. Thank God I've Julia with me, if not I will be running here and there like hell and not withstanding the fact that i have to entertain those cheap skate of the military. Pffttt!!!!!

It was a 4 days trip started in Kota Kinabalu, Sepanggar Base to be exact. Then went to Tawau on the 2nd day and Semporna for the third day. Visiting few military base which most of them in small islands. The islands was great but the sun was too hot...tak larat beb!! Tu tak termasuk lagi, hati panas melayan, "jejaka-jejaka" perasan muda. Mujur ler sebab kerja kalau tak tak hengen aku nak melayan kerenah-kerenah yang nak specification barang2 yang tak termasuk dalam kontrak.

Friday, last day trip to Sandakan. Rasa cam best la sebab malam dah boleh balik Semenanjung. Miss my other half so much. Julia plak sibuk soh stay another day, sebab ajak teman dia berjimba-jimbaan di Sandakan. Malas tul la aku..tapi aku layankan jugak la. Maybe Allah nak tunjuk la kot..on our way to tempat berjimbaan, kete yang aku bawak terbabas sebab nak mengelak kete honda yang pancung kete company aku. mujur tak langgar apa-apa. Laju tak laju la aku bawak dalam 100kmj jer. Tak laju kannn...kan..kann...Syukur le takde yang cedera parah...Si Julia n aku siap leh gelak-gelak lagik, walaupun kepala aku dah menitik darah..bibir Julia plak pecah...mujur tak berterabur gigi katanya...heheheheh!! Aku tak suspect apa2 sebab tak rasa sakit. Kepala ada sikit pening la, sebab terhantuk kat steering, maklum ler kete murah mana ada airbag katanyaa....

But for precaution, Julia ajak jugak la pi spital swasta kat Sandakan. Rupa-rupanya tangan kiri aku fractured daaa...ni yang aku malas nih...nak kene simen bagai...aku tak bagi doktor tu casing tangan aku leceh ler...sebab retak jek bukan patah pun (pandai betul la aku kannn)..selepas bergaduh-gaduh manja ngan doktor yang tak hensem tersebut,kene simen jugak..cehhh!! mengabihkan air liur jek...bagitau boss pasal accident nih..kene plak angin puting beliung dari boss..dia soh aku ngan Julia pegi jumpa doktor (kawan dia la tu) kat Queen Elizabeth Hospital kat Kota Kinabalu for 2nd check-up...mak aiii....nak ambik hati pegi ler jugak...

Well, hajat Julia untuk aku stay another night kat Sabah tercapai ler, walaupun bukan seperti yang diinginkan. Kepada Julia, I'm so sorry la kiddo, aku tak bgtau ko aku nak brake emergency, sebab nama pon emergency kan...bibir ko yang pecah tu, ko soh la Damien cium banyak2 kali, lepas tu mesti ko sihat walafiat, bila lagi ko nak bermanja ngan hantu jerangkung ko tuu kan....kepada kete honda putih yang plat ketenya aku tak hengat...ada lori ada bas bro, esok lusa ko plak kene...belajar-belajar la bertenang semasa memotong (mengata orang, aku pon lebih kurang gak)...hehehehehe!!!

Semalam sampai umah, dengan bebelan dari Encik Larmyzee nearly menanah telinga...tapi aku dengarkan jelah umpama mendengar kicauan unggas di pagi hari....yang pasti, aku masih mencari-cari di manakan kunci keretaku, kerana Encik Larmyzee telah menyorokkan kunci tersebut memandangkan tangan kiri aku kurang berfungsi. Encik Larmyzee mengambil tindakan tersebut kerana dia tahu aku akan mencari jalan akan drive jugak kereta walaupun memerlukan tangan kiri untuk mengendalikan kereta manual...Tapiii..ada aku kesahhhhhh!!!

Degil..degil....

c'ya!!

p/s : ok la entry nih untuk seseorang yang menaip dengan satu tangan...hehheheh!!!!

p/s : gambo ada, malas tepek..boleyyy...

p/s : Tahniah Negeri Sembilan sebab menjuarai Piala FA walaupun kemenangan itu aku rasa tak best sebab penalti. Terkenang-kenang masa tengok Piala Malaysia tahun lepas...erhmmm...

p/s : Tahniah kepada Nubies dan Nubhan jugak sebab di tangga ke 3 carta Muzik-Muzik 25 walaupun last week di tangga 18....giler naik cam roket...Inshaallah minggu nie, nombor UNO!! Nombor 1 la tuuu...Tak sesia vote, katanya...

Twilight Saga

Dear All,

We have been exposed to these Twilight Saga since 2 or 3 years ago. It has been a phenomenon since. Iam really not a huge fan of Twilightmania thing but have seen the first 2 saga, Twilight and New Moon. The third saga will be up for viewing by upcoming June 2010.

Last week, due to bore and lonelyness, I went to Midvalley to catch a movie, Clash of the Titans and do some window-shopping. After bought the ticket, i just clueless and did not knew where to go. Went "lepak-lepak" at Starbucks @ Garden until I am bored to death. Decided go to Borders to find some light reading. As I entered, I saw 1 whole section filled with Twilight Saga's books. So, I said to myself, why not. I just grab the third saga, Eclipse coz I've watch the earliest 2 before so it would'nt much different. Not expensive and affordable, just RM49.90.

As I start reading it, i just can't get my eyes over it. Stephanie Meyers done a great job. and I definately buy the forth saga, infact will buy the first two also as soon as I get back from Kota Kinabalu next week.

These are the books and a a review from their blog. get your copy now and I can ensure you that they are damn good.

When seventeen year-old Bella Swan leaves Arizona to live with her father in the small and gloomy town of Forks, she doesn' expect to like it. When she was younger, she was forced to visit her father in Forks. The last few years were filled with excuses of why she couldn't visit Forks, so she wasn't expecting expecting to care for such a tiny town. If living in Forks, with its constant mist and rain,w asn't bad enough, she will make the whole new set of friends and settle into a new school. Bella finds it easy to make new friends at school but when she sees a boy called Edward Cullen sitting with his brothers and sisters in the cafetaria, she is instantly intrigued. Edward is stunningly attractive, almost inhumanly beautiful, and yet he is an outsider. Although Edward and his family have lived on Forks for two years, they have never really been accepted by the townfolks. At first Edward is aloof, sometimes it almost seems like he can't stand to be in the same room as her, but eventually they strike up an unlikely friendship.

Even as Bella falls hopelessly and irrevocably in love with Edward, she still can't work out exactly what makes him so different to everyone else. On a trip to the beach, Bella is told of the local legend about the "cold ones", a group of blood drinkers who have sworn off hunting humans but still not welcome on Indian land because vampires are not to be trusted. realising Edward is vampire changes nothing to Bella, she knows that she still loves him even if he's not human. Edward and his whole family are vampires. Edward himself was made a vampire when he was seventeen years-old, although that was at the end of World War I. For Edward his love for Bella is both a delight and forment. A delight because she is the first person he has loved since he was made a vampire. A forment because although he has sworn off human blood and only hunts animals, the craving for human blood never truly leaves him and the very scent of her also stirs his hunger for blood.

It's Isabella Swan's 18th Birthday, and unlike the rest of her high school classmates, she's been dreading this milestone for months. once Bella turns 18, she'll officially be older than her beloved edward Cullen, eho is 17 and remain so until the end of time. Dazzlingly handsome Edward, like the rest of his family, is undead, a vampire destined to remain young and beautiful forever; while mortals like Bella age and perish all around them.

Fllowing a frightening wncounter with some of Edward's siblings after she cuts her finger on wrapping paper (the Cullens pledge to hunt only wild animals, but the smell of human blood can send them into a frenzy), Edward grows increasingly distant with Bella. finally he drops a bombshell---he is leaving Bella forever, finally embracing his vampire characteristics and longer, as he tells her "pretending to be somthing I'm not". Disappearing suddenly into a dark and moonless wood, Edward leaves Bella utterly alone and despondent. "I hoped that I was fainting, but, to my disappointment, I didn't lose consciousness. The waves of pain that had only lapped at me before now reared high up and washed over my head, pulling me under."

Bella drowns in her pain for months, resurfing only when her father threatens to send her to see a psycologist or to live with her mother. Desperate not to forget Edward, Bella rekindles a friendship with Jacob Black, a large, hard-edged boy with tendency to live life recklessly. Jacob lives on the area's Indian reservation, whose inhabitats loathe the vampires for reasons that become increasingly clear as Bella's friendship with Jabob deepens. Bella's thrill-seeking adventures with jake, though, attract attention, leading Bella back to Edward--and to a new threat neither one of them ever inticipated.

It's just a few weeks before high school graduation, and although most girls Bella Swan's age would be focused on what to wear to the big dance or how to pass calculus, Bella has a few more important things on her mind. Now that she's been reunited with her vanpire boyfriend Edward, Bella must decide whether---and when---to join him and his coven, to forsake her mortality (and her friends and family) to live, like Edward, forever.

Bella finally thinking a little about implications of her decision to become a vampire standing up to Edward's dominating, overprotective tendencies. Edward is an old-fashioned guy. He won't turn Bella into a vampire unless she marries him first, and the idea of telling him she's getting married at 18 is more terrifying than admitting to her futire transformation. bella would also have to move far away from her beloved father during their dangerous "newborn" vampire period, when she sould be unable to control her bloodthirsty urges. and then there's jake, the werewolf who finally pledges his love to Bella.

Is she really ready to leave him behind? Bella does feel some urgency for this decision, though. She has made some enemies who would be more than happy to harm her while they still can. What's more, there's a newborn vampire on the loose in Seattle, terrorizing humans nad threatening either the Cullen family or Bella herself. Clearly, time is running out while Bella hesitates.

Bella Swan is ecstatic---and nervous. She's on the brink marrying the love of her life, the charasmatic, devastatingly handsome Edward Cullen. Bella's parents have reluctantly come around to the idea of their teenage daughter getting married. And the Cullens, particularly Bella's good friend alice, who plans the event, couldn't be happier. Only Bella's old pal Jacob is upset at losing Bella. The wedding goes smoothly and beautifully, and Edward and Bella spend magical honeymoon on a private island.

There, they are finally able to indulge the desire they've always felt for each other (even their lovemaking initially results in injuries both to Bella and their rooms, thanks to Edward's uncontrollable passion). When Bella begins to be alternately sick and ravenous, she become suspicious that---despite everything she's been told about the impossibility of such a thing---she might get pregnant with Edward's child. terrified that she could lose her life to the ravenous, vampiric unborn child inside her, pressured bu Edward and others to rid herself of the baby.

Bella retreats into herself, concerned only with protecting her unborn child, even if it means harm to herself. As for Jacob, he tries in vain to imprint on other females, but he cannot forget Bella, especially when her learns of her perilous pregnancy and physical condition. When Bella and Edward's daughter is born, is it possible that this half-human, half-vampire can unite the Cullens and Jacob's shape-shifting La Push clan? Could she be catalyst for Jacob and Edward's reconciliation? Or does her very existance---particularly once word of her birth reaches the dangerous Voltari campire clan---put everything Bella loves at risks?

Well, happy reading!!!

It's Time to Fly SOLO!!

Dear All,

I don't know whether I have made a big mistake by taking this sudden decision. By way I'm seeing this, it's for the better. Not that I wanna make a big fuss about it, but i gotta do this before things worsen. It's worthless if we continue things that are not meant to be, things that are not base on friendship.

I'm not saying that I'm perfect but, the truth is I wanna people that so called friends correct me if I'm wrong, not just ignore me as a signed that I'm doing something wrong or bad. I can handle all kind of shit talks and condemn but don't shut me off for things that you're not satisfied with me..spit it, will ya!!! And please don't refer me as third party as in "orang tu" or "dia" even "orang yang lagi satu". For good sake, we are friend before. Is my name so "jijik" for you to say it now?? Goshhh!!!

I try to hang on to this so called friendship, but it takes two to tango. If I'm the only one putting an effort to resurrect things up, it won't work either. I've tone down my ego to admit my flaws, my wrongdoings or even bitchy attitude and apologize. What do I get in return? My apologies hanged without any sincere answer. So, do I need to "terhegeh-hegeh" and put myself on their feet eventhough the counterpart filled with ignorance. No need consider me a friend anymore coz maybe thing that i've done to them (if I can recall), totally and utterly big for them to forgive me. I guess they also wanna this to end.

So, for the last time, thank you for the happiness given to me for the past 2 years. Thank you for the sweet memories, thank you for everything. I am wishing you, all the very best in whatever you're doing and may happiness be by your side, always. Halalkan makan minum, all those money you spent for me, presents and also dosa-dosa aku, even you did not say it outloud.

There's no such thing as true friend, that's my bad. I really believe that true friends exist. i guess it's not the time yet. Maybe i ought to be what I am afterall...a bitchy lone ranger. I'm betraying this friendship coz this is the best way to deal with this and I know even we're back together, it won't be the same, and I cannot bear with that.

It's time to fly solo......again!!

Another Happy Birthday

Dear All,

Just wanna wish this guy a very HAPPY 24th BIRTHDAY which falls today 2nd APRIL 2010.

My best wishes goes to you. May Allah blessed you and ease the road to reach all of your dreams. May also you be blessed with good health to achieve that.

Whatever happened, good or bad, highs or lows, there will always be people around that love you so very much and would lend their ears to listen, a shoulder to cry on and don't mind sharing. You know who they are. They will never turn their backs on you.

As a year added to the record, always careful with every steps you take and always be yourself.

Have a blast birthday.

With the BIRTHDAY BOY @ Saloma Bistro

Valentine's day 2009 with bunch of other friends